My first poem

I penned this poem when I was in college- 3rd yr engineering to be precise. I posted it online 5 yrs back. 

God Sent An Angel

Once upon a time, 
A girl was born… 
She laughed, she played, 
She was as ordinary as other kids… 
She learnt her lessons, she said her prayers, 
She saw dreams like you and me…   

She grew in beauty and vigour.
Her splendour, her simplicity 
Always caught peoples’ eyes. 
Her soft skin and straight hair, 
Never went unnoticed. 
Her smile was captivating 
“How lucky”, they said, 
“She’s so charming.”   

She got married. 
A woman’s dream came true. 
Hand in hand they started a life.
She had lovely babies, she nurtured them, 
Bestowed them with love and care. 

God’s plan seemed to be, 
A little different from her’s. 
And somewhere down the lane she realized, 
Alone she was in the race…   

Trials and sorrows began to pile up, 
Helping hands and sympathies came her way… 
But somehow the support she most longed for, 
Seemed to drift away… 
She tried her best to hold on, 
Turning her weaknesses into strengths. 
Her determination grew strong. 
She held on tightly to her faith. 
“Until they learn to fly”, 
She always prayed.   
Her health was giving away… 
Coughing her lungs out, 
She continued to her goal…  

The time had come, 
For her to bid farewell, 
She had worked hard enough,
Unto the dream destination. 

“God saw she was tired 
And the cure was not to be 
So he put His arms around her 
And whispered, ‘Come with me’. 

With tears filled eyes we watched her 
Suffer and fade away. 
Although we loved her deeply, 
We couldn’t make her stay. 
             
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hardworking hands put to rest. 
God broke our hearts to prove to us, 
He only takes the best.” 

Her sacrifices were beyond Motherhood, 
Her will-power crossed all borders. 
She is most beautiful, 
Amongst all I’ve seen… 
And no matter what, 
She will always remain with us,
Watching over us… 
I can still hear her say, 
‘I am praying, 
Specially for you’…
              -Zoya Seeks Rose 

23 yrs "old"

Its so hard to believe! 23yrs- sounds like too long a time, but seems so little to me. I really can't believe I'm done with 2 important phases in my life- childhood and youth. Hmm, that reminds me, I have to do a lot of reading.

At this age I am porobably expected to act and think more maturely, which I do most often. But sometimes I also think like a child- silly and innocent. Some situations still seem so traumatic. I often wonder how I would be as a wife, a mother, a grandmother... Now that I have few school friends and colleges pals getting married, I think of the new roles more often. I find it near impossible to be good at all that. I wonder whether everybody feels the same about it, or is it just me? Like every girl I dream of a prince charming, battling his way to reach me. I believe one day I will find my soulmate. Through school and college I have wondered why theres a delay with me, for my prince to turn up. And hence I lose myself in the wonderland.
But of course, as I had previously mentioned, mine is a wackoland. Soon afterwards, I would be reminded of certain broken marriages that I have known of or heard of. And then I get scared thinking of what could be in store for me. I'm sure God has a plan; Que Sera Sera (Whatever will be, will be).

But I still have time to get into serious thinking and wouldn't you call it stupidity to waste time fearing things that may or may not happen. But thats how my mind is here and there. I miss having my friends and family around. When they are there, I dont enjoy enough and when they are not, I miss them. i am crazy, aint I? hehe

I see a possibility of a movie- maybe Prince of Persia and food from outside. I guess that is how my birthday is gona be. I wanted to avoid it only coz of temptation (i have these temptations, to do nothing and then brood over it, sounds crazy, but I don't want to get into personal stuff as yet). I have to admit, being lazy and just responding to bday wishes online can let the devil creep in. I really miss those days when you looked forward to your birthday; right now it feels like just another day, unless you choose to treat yourself. I really wanted to do that, but I decided to sit back. I guess am growing old, sounds cheesy hehe. But theres a freedom there, and with a job- money to do whatever you want, if you want that is.

Looks like my blogs getting messy. I better sign out, before you'd decide to give up on me :).

23rd birthday eve

As the name suggests, mine ia a wacko-world, atleast thats how I see it. A few more posts, and you'll definitely see why :).

My birthday eves are usually the same- thoughts of my birthday pasts would fill my mind. I would try and wonder how this year it would be different, or how I could make it different. Every year, I'd decide that this one is just gona be very ordinary and I would pray that I should stay strong, avoiding all negative thoughts and memories.

But God is so amazing, inspite of me trying to believe in the worst things (well that if its any bad, I would be prepared for it, coz I was expecting the worst anyway), He uses everything and every person around me to make me and every day in my life special. This particular talent of His is what I refer to as "making the cake appetizing". My life hasn't been a bed of roses, but yet He bringfs about miracles, so many and abundant in grace that I really can't afford to blame Him :).

On this day, I miss my mother and my friends from school and colleges, who have all blessed my life in their own respective ways. I couldn't have asked for more in this life, coz I have already got the best of wats there :).

I had lots of things on my mind, wanted to send mails to my friends, appreciate their time n support and love, but I'm really sleepy now.

I am glad I finally sat down to create a blog, but what could be more rewarding than a few readers. I hope theres some1 out there reading. :)

Gudnyts for now; hopefully i would find sometime to blog again. until then, Adios :).

My First Post

Ever since I heard about "writing a blog", I have wanted to try it, to type a few things- maybe my thoughts or ideas, or maybe even a few things from my life (esp. whenver I'd get to overwhelmed with it, and I would just wana let it out to someone).

So here it is- my first ever blog. I wonder how far it would go. But it will be special, coz its my first time and secondly coz I am spending a sleepless night on my 23rd birthday eve, just to finally get to blogging.

So I welcome you all into my little wacko-world. Stay tuned :).